We care a lot
Jul 5th, 2005 by Jon
A great song by Faith No More. I’m a bit like Faith No More because I care a lot too. Too much for some people. Too little for others. Most people know who I care too much about. Can you care too much for someone? Maybe you can just care a lot. If that’s the case, then I guess I just care a lot about someone. It’s a bit of a one-way street though, with lots of speed bumps and small children running across without looking. I’m trying my best to get along, but I’m struggling.
The other person is speeding ahead. I’m happy and sad about this. I hope she doesn’t go over the speed limit, and sometimes I really wish she’d just break all the rules, turn around, and come back. TV, films, and music make me think this might happen one day. I wonder if real life is ever like that. I hope it is. But should I wait to find out? I’m setting myself up for a fall every single day. More often than not I do fall. But something inside me won’t let go. It’s not a feeling I can really control. It’s just there. It has been there for months and months. It’s difficult and sometimes scary to think it’ll ever go away. It hurts. It makes me happy. She hurts. I don’t know.
I guess it’s just one of those things. And I guess I’m just one of those people it’s happening to.
I think I may have broken my toe tonight playing football. That’s the sort of hurt I can cope with.
